I’ve been a homemaker/SAHM for almost 8 years now and there are days that I still struggle with being “just a mom.” Every so often I’ll fall into a rhythm that convinces me that I should be doing MORE because, you know, I’m not working outside the home. I am a people pleaser by nature and I have a really hard time saying no. I tend to say YES first and then check to see if this is actually possible to complete.
I am in one of those seasons right now, and I think that I have just bitten off WAY more than I can chew. Looking at the commitments that I have made, I am realizing why I am feeling jealous of my friends who have housekeepers (which I swear is just about EVERYONE I KNOW!) because I just can’t keep up with my housework and taking care of my home.
The girls are in school full time and so it’s just me and the boy. Since he was born, I have been schlepping him from place to place and activity to activity that I fear what it would look like if we HAD to stay home! I fear that he would be bored out of his mind and that I would still not get anything done because I would just spend the whole time playing and goofing around with him.
But the reality remains, I need to eliminate some things from my life to make it, you know, livable again. No worries, I’m not talking about this little ol’ blog.
I sat down and brainstormed what I am involved in and got this list:
Yes, we can say over scheduled for sure. At least two of these commitments will be ending in about 2 months (MOPS and JLP) and I decided against the MLM (Arbonne) so that will give me a little breathing space. School, Scouts and Choir do not meet in the summer as well.
Part of the issue is that while I’m an introvert by nature, I still love to be productive. However, I am finding that my productivity is less than efficient. And why do I feel the need to be so busy? On a basic level, it’s really because I want to avoid my housework.
But you do see what’s wrong with that?
My job is to take care of my home and my children and there is nothing wrong with that. However, I feel a self-imposed criticism at just staying home. Like it doesn’t matter as much as the mom who goes off to a high-powered corporate job.
I don’t know what I can do to convince myself that what I do does matter but I know that I can do one thing to start:
For what it’s worth, I’ve had this card for about 6 years and I still haven’t learned this lesson.
Such a work in progress surviving only by God’s Grace.
Until Next Time!